I need Jesus just as much as I did when I was first baptized
Wow blogging world, it’s been a while. I apologize for the silence. I seriously feel prompted to write like several times a week, but usually sacrifice the blog for watching tv or some other insignificant activity. Anyways, as much as I hate New Year’s Resolutions, I would go to my grave preaching the importance of setting goals. So one goal I set this new year was to fully utilize my blog to ultimately and hopefully better influence those around me for Christ. That doesn’t mean to expect a bunch of deep theological ramblings from this site, but rather blog posts that represent someone who is authentically trying to live everyday surrendered to Christ. It’s not easy, but it’s a beautiful adventure that I hope to capture.
While we’re on the subject of the new year and goals and such, I realized something tonight through some quiet reading and prayer.
I’m argumentative by nature. Like, sometimes I think would have been just as destructive to struggle with over compulsive disorder. Over the past year, I’ve noticed myself as a minister, constantly trying to challenge people with different view points. It makes me feel noble, but if I were to be honest, sometimes I think I do it just because I like debate and maybe just being different than other people. This can be a positive trait if I truly am challenging people to grow in their faith by doing this, but this trait could be very destructive if I’m really just throughing different veiwpoints out there because I’m nauturally argumentative. If I were to be honest, I’m sure this argumentative nature has lead me into sin many times, but at least I can be honest about it. It’s a struggle, and I must depend of the Holy Spirit to keep it under control.
I also found that I’m still bringing some of the same sin struggles to God that I did in High School. I know I’ve grown and matured in my faith since my freshman year of high school, but yet these certain things still get me. I think to myself, if it hasn’t stopped now, will it ever stop? It might always be lurking at my door. This simply tells me that I’m in need. I’d be foolish to act like I have it altogether just because I’m a Christian or a minister. I’m still in need of forgiveness, and I always will be.
Lastly, I simply reflected on the fact that life never seems ideal. There’s always the situation you’d like to be in, versus the situation you’re really in. There’s always what you think family should be like, and then how family really acts. There’s always what you’d assume sanctified, reborn church people would be like, and then the honest truth about how some of us really act. I don’t think we really inherited the world God intended for us, I think Adam and Eve inherited it and lost it do to their sin, and it’s evident to me that I’m living in that same world Adam and Eve were cursed to for their disobedience.
What I’m trying to say is that we all need a Savior. We don’t just need Him when we’re at our lowest low, or just at that moment when we realize we need to be born again and immersed in baptism. We need him all the time! Everyday, every second! We’re lost without Him! I am so thankful Jesus is in my life, and that he cares for me. He cares for all of us, he died for all of us, he reigns in Heaven to give hope to all of us. I am so thankful for Him!
